Everybody will come to a point in their life, where they consider themselves to have already achieved a certain level of satisfactory wisdom (by personal opinion of course). Symptoms of this disillusion are usually accompanied by familiar statements such as, "I can handle any situation that's thrown at me", or the familiar "I should listen more to myself rather than other people", or the more severe "My opinion is better than yours".
The biggest symptom of course, is when you constantly regard your opinions or thoughts higher than any other person's. Where your words seem to encompass the whole conversation and other people's words are but trivial. Of course to some degree, this is an exaggeration. But as a member of 'disillusion-wisdom-anonymous', I can tell you how warm and cozy it is to be in the 'I am wise' zone, and how much it is a strain and a pain to dip your toes in the cold freezing waters of anything else around it.
The disillusion, like most things that seem good, do not last. Rest assured, slowly, bit by bit, the zone will shrink, until one day you'll look over the edge, peer curiously at your own reflection, accidentally slip and drop face first in to the cold ice-like water. The sub temperature liquid numbing your senses. Your once warm lungs filled with frost. The realization of ignorance blinding your once sound judgment. Gone are the feelings of confidence, gone are the walls of dependability, gone are the mounds and hills of self-esteem. The only thing left is a husk, confused and lost.
Are things forever lost? Will the binds of confusion hold on?... Probably not. Fortunately, it is nature for people to persevere. Slowly you'll learn how to wade in the cold water, slowly will the vast span of water be more a blessing to you than and curse. Sure, you won't be as warm as you were before, but your strides will be long and you will be able to reach far. Farther than you thought you could.
The only regret going through your head being "Wouldn't it be great and a lot less painful if I could have dipped myself in the cold water slowly leg first".
Note:
I am lucky to have so many people around me to learn from (whether you realize it or not)... all I need to do is listen. If you happen to be reading this, thank you.
Blogging off....
3 comments:
Mr. Disillusion-Wisdom-Anonymous,
You're a good writer. Hope the brilliance wouldn't shrink.
hopefully... Being consistent is a huge challenge.
Haha, ditto. I'm finding myself lagging in writing when it matters most.
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